Debating

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood

I can't make up my mind. Things are really mulling over in my head, and I don't know what to do. I don't know how to not be the way that I am right now? It doesn't make any sense, I never make any sense. But I wish you could make some sense of this. Saturday nights in October, you make me think too much. Maybe November will bring me answers. Till then, I keep debating.

Wuthering

Wuthering winds making wilted leaves.

Changing

The tree's leaves are changing colour so quickly.

L'absente by Yann Tiersen

L'absente by Yann Tiersen

Taking

Oh my God. This post is long overdue considering my love for October began 13 days ago. Happy October. Happy Happy Happy October. I get really upset when I think about how there are only 18 days left. It's just this thing I do. Get excited for beautiful things to begin but depress myself knowing that they will end. Like a great concert. I always do that with concerts. So, to my surprise, there are some pretty cool trees around where I live and I decided that I am going to follow the life of this one tree for the rest of October. I literally need to remind myself by writing it on my hand or something to take a picture of said tree everyday. Except that I missed today. Literally. I'm sounding more and more like my best friend Jocelyn who uses literally when she doesn't really mean literally, literally! I thought it was a really cute idea of me to follow the path of this tree through October, into November, and into December. I just will be taking a picture of it on my phone's camera. The first time I did it, a few days ago (yes I am aware following a few days ago during the subsequent days I have not taken a picture, but I vow to start tomorrow) people were looking at me oddly. You will notice that the tree is on the side of a sidewalk path. Where I may or may not have stopped traffic to take the picture. I don't know, it's something about this tree that when I first saw it, it looked so pretty. And then today it was raining, and there were yellow and red leaves falling off it. And it made me think, I want to keep track of you. What you look like throughout October. I really hope I can stick with it. Because regardless of what we think, we change over days. Just like the tree does. Just last Thursday it was happy in blue skies, and today it was sad and quivering. So what is it tomorrow? I'll be taking pictures to find out, about the tree; and about October. Taking October in, let this season begin. Good day Autumn.

The tree.

Need to figure out the name of this tree.

It is different from my main tree.

But the red berries make me happy.

Something about the hay grass and berries:Fall.

I made this picture my background. Pure beauty.