Settling

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do we think we are? People really do run around making a mess of near perfection to thrill their own satisfaction. I know I do that to. But who gave us that right? I despise the person that does it to me, but I revengefully do it back. I despise so many things about certain people, and I love so many things about them all the same. But it shouldn't be like that. I should love things about you so much that I don't pay attention to all that I dislike. But it's not working like that. Is that supposed to be compromising? It seems like it's just settling. We could all do so much better if we didn't just settle. Because prior to settling if you could account for unwanted differences in each other, then you would just deal with it--then and there. You wouldn't need a reason to settle. I don't ever want to have to settle. For anything. But I already have for so much. It's up to me whether I take it in my control to change things, or if I settle for what I've settled. All I know is I've been running around leaving scars and so have you. Maybe if I didn't necessitate settling, I wouldn't be revengeful. Then you or I would never really hurt people, because we wouldn't settle for their imperfections. They would just be what they are. We would hurt so much less; but I know that I would think so much more.

Updating

Have I used this verb before? Probably not because I usually try to think of verbs that will catch someone's attention, for the most part. However since updating and blogging bear somewhat synonymous meanings, I guess I am not so creative. So there's that.

And then there is this guy:

Matt Cusick.

He creates this phenomenal art. Now, I have always enjoyed art. But I must say. I've always like some oddity of art. Like the atypical art. Like Mr. Cusick's. I am being one of those girls who says "like" all the time. For this, it's appropriate. I think.

All

Made

From

Recycled

Maps.

I encourage you to take a look at his other work, that which includes this beautiful image.

So it is a collaged artwork of words. Which is so elating to me because people so often say that art is the process of expressing a thought or feeling without text. But it can be with text. The combination of the two is exhilarating, think of the art of words & the art of images. Separate, they are breathtaking. Together, exhilarating.

So the only reason I found Matthew Cusick's art is because I had googled eco-friendly transportable speakers. So then I found this awesome Green Diary blog. I am pretty much obsessed with it. So I found the speakers I had been looking for. Maybe the one thing I will ask for Christmas. Because I like to call myself a Holiday Christian. So these are the speakers.

Could they honestly be any cooler.

Cheers to this log. They can be cooler.

If anyone knows me they know that I love and genuinely enjoy being eco-friendly. I know that is "so like, this new generation and era type revolution, to pretend to be something you really aren't" but I actually genuinely care. I'm not really talking about recycling bottles, cans, paper, etc. I do that, but I'm speaking of larger scaled things. I haven't changed the world yet which is odd because I'm really great (note: sarcasm) but despite my belief in microscopic changes having a macroscopic effect, I actually believe in something more simple, what I like to call EARTH.

Entertain the idea that

All natural

Resources are

Taken for granted, but underlie the truth to

Healing mother Earth.

It's like a fake acronym. One time Sophomore year in College I came up with it during my Ecology class. This is the same class that furthered my interests in Environmental Ecology and lead me to take Natural Resource Ecology, Fish & Wildlife Ecology, and Community Ecology. All classes that I've honestly given all my attention and dedication to.

In personal news winter vacation is bringing out the lazy in me. I have plans to knit, read, and create some art. Hopefully I will get to all of that, I have no reason not to.

I'll be better at updating this, I promise, my friend. Probably the only friend who reads this. And so when I write it, I feel like I'm in conversation with her.

It's what I do.

Perpetuating

While I hate winter and unreliability of ice...images like this perpetuate my love for it.